better day.

i got a call from my dad at 9:24 a.m. this morning. i assumed he was calling to tell me they were just leaving the house to come down to columbus for a visit...but he said 'tell adeline to look out the window!' & we looked out the window to find them in our driveway already! adeline gave the appropriate grandparent surprise visit: *hands over mouth* "GUH GUH, PUH [which is 'gram-mum, pop-pop' in adeline language]" *LOUD LAUGHTER & EXUBERANT SHOUTING*.

adeline & amelia had a wonderful day with them. everyone was laughing & happy & giggly. i think i let myself relax a bit more as well. it helped that i was able to go out to lunch with a delightful friend (christine!) to a delightful place (chipotle!) & then make a quick target run for necessary diapers & desitin. adeline had such a fun filled morning that she actually took a 2 hour nap! i got home around 3:30 & the house was so quiet. it was nice. too bad i can't get the house to be this quiet (how do grandparents do that?).

i talked to my eye dr this afternoon. i just love her already. she was very understanding of my freaking out-edness & said she didn't want to assume anything b/c she doesn't know for sure which way this will go (serious problem vs. non-serious problem) & she went through the trouble of explaining it all to me again & even answering questions before i asked them. i think i have more of an understanding of what all the possibilities are: #1 my eyes could just be normally this weird #2 very small particulates could be attaching themselves to my nerves (stuff from make up or face wash or iud hormones & a variety of other environmental stuff) #3 the nerve is inflammed & swollen from pressure or infection or a disease (ms, thyroid, tumor). so that's what i'm up against & i will know for sure (so says this eye doc) which of the three is the issue after the appointment with the optical neurologist on monday.

i am staying away from google & all medical websites from now until then! but i would of course still appreciate prayers that god would calm my nerves (figuratively & literally!) & whatever it is, i will be able to handle.

on a better note, my friend christine today told me that if i do in fact have MS, that she would ensure that i look good when i'm down & out. i guess that means style my hair & slop some make up on & get me into some decent clothes. gotta love friends! she even said she'd help me in the bathroom... wow.

& i don't know what happened with the edit of my last post...wes said he would edit it & mentioned something about spacing problems & somehow words ended up deleted or changed or smooshed together. hhhhm, i guess even if i don't feel up to it, i should edit my own post?

& wes is gleeful: his veggie seeds arrived in the mail today! he is downstairs as i type setting up his seed growing operation. (which, btw, he also said if i have ms he would grow weed for me to help me through rough times...i tell ya, i have wonderful people around me, eh? lol).

& now i want to start working on amelia's half birthday video! yes, the little cherub is 6 months today! it's hard to believe that it was that long ago, but i can remember the birth day like it happened last week. i just love this little one to pieces.

here's a picture of mama & amelia several minutes after her birth.

i need to get crackin' on that love fest video for my wee one!